Fretting

Fretting

Heart in upheaval, pulse beginning to race,

Fretting, Worrying and anxiety trying to take its place.

 Thoughts chasing round dead end pathways.

Knowing and believing conflicting somewhere on neuronal byways

Trust in the unseen, difficult to grasp.

Wrapping minds around God's sovereignty,

Childlike faith needed that Abba Father’s got this.

Peace flooding places,

Pushing out trepidation, no room for distress.

Breath holding now released,

Hearts at ease able to rest.

Thoughts from today's verse from an online bible study..

"Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted".
Thoughts from today's verse from an online bible study..

To mourn, to grieve, to repent in brokenness over ones sin.
To reflectively examine the ugly parts and call out from the deep places in remorse.
To acknowledge ones short comings and to desire to change with the hope that God can and will meet you there.
To Have Godly sorrow for our disobedience to God's best  for us and to receive comfort in His pardoning arms.
To have our hearts break for what breaks His and to allow ourselves to be swept up into his presence.
To lay our burdens at the cross and arise with the risen savior  and go forth into the thrown room of our God covered and assured.

Cupcakes, fruit trays, table cloths, guitars and rolls.

Cupcakes, fruit trays, table cloths, guitars and rolls.





Community is a beautiful thing when it is fueled by God's love. Something lovely happened this past week. A coming together with cupcakes,fruit trays, table cloths and rolls along with prayers made for a joyful celebration for a displaced girl. It is so easy to want to rescue those who are hurting but the reality is, in our own strength we cannot do it. But when we gather together linking arms, sharing resources and love, it is amazing what happens. One talented young man came and provide free music to entertain while others came with love and support. Watching God move in others hearts this week overwhelmed my soul with such joy, just the simple offer to supply drinks and table cloths has moved me to tears. I thank all who came in body or spirit to bless this young lady.

Journey's

Waiting, anticipating,

Gates opening, some arriving, some departing.

All on a journey.

Destinations never really meant to be stagnant,

Movement always needed whether in geography or in heart.

New territory to be explored, some with caution, some with brave abandon.

Restless wanderers meant to step onto the trail,

Some to follow the leader, some to lead the followers.

Converging and diverging onto different paths,

All heading towards journeys end.

The Luxury of Favorite foods

The Luxury of Favorite foods

It is hard to truly appreciate the luxuries I have been afforded and have been able to provide for my children.  The luxury of having a favorite food or two. The luxury of getting to figure out what interests them, what hobbies or past time they want to pursue. The simple gift of deciding how to unwind. Recently I was inquiring about those very things from someone and was knocked down at the realization as they answered they did not know, that it is indeed a luxury.  Many do not have the "margins" (a friend’s phrase) to figure out are they artsy? Musical? Outdoorsy? Etc. The daily grind of trying to work and keep their head afloat and for many the lack of family pushes these things out of view. There are many great organizations, groups, churches and people who help in providing for basic needs.  But the caring for hearts is so much harder and messy. Lesson learned for me, the simple act of inquiring and caring about what matters to those who do not have these luxuries is just as important as caring for needs.

self discipline

Oswald chambers writes "don't' make food and drink the controlling factor of your life  but be focused absolutely on God."  


Ah but food is so intertwined into all we do. We work so we have money to feed ourselves. We gather, grow or buy food and then prepare it on a daily basis  day after day week after week. How can I not let food have some sway or control. Is it just a matter of will power or not even caring. If I am not mindful of what I eat then is excess then given place but then again self discipline sounds very confining and  brings to mind rules and legalism. Which is it to be?Carefree or controlled? Is there a compromise to be sought?

or as Mathew 6:33 says are we to  "Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you." We are told not to worry about what we will wear or eat, that God knows what we need. So then we can release all need to control over to God....or can we ? My own struggles come as I bristle at rules yet my freedom comes when  I allow self discipline to find its way via trusting God will give me courage and control over those areas that I am weakest in and then daily choosing to walk it out.